Well, Well 2018

I told folks on my social media accounts on how I treated my timeline like a social experiment this year. In 2016 & 2017 I saw many posts that caused me to wholeheartedly believe in the popular saying, "If It's Not Direct, Don't Respect". And that resulted in how I interacted on social media in 2018. In 2019, my behavior will tell the results. I started to discuss that here, but that seemed overkill. Plus, nobody cares about what I do on social media aka SoMe. So in this blog, let's talk about some of the various "interesting" things I experienced in 2018.

I finally found a "crazy bride" whose actions I agreed within 2018. Here you will read about a Bride kicking guests out of her wedding for not following one rule. Extreme Bridezilla behavior took an L this year. I was one of those handing out those Loses here on this blog. But these guests were wrong and should not have attended. I only gave her 95% of my agreement. Had to dock her for documenting her actions on Reddit. "We" didn't need to know about it.

I had to end a quick dating rapport in the latter part of the spring. I really wasn't that broke up about it. And as I was bopping to my favorite trendy song, "Nice for What" by Drake, my favorite 2018 song came into my life via a web show soundtrack.

I love "Almost Cried" because nobody is angry, begging, or crying. One of the best lyrics said, "I just can't lose no sleep, I got sh*t to do today". They gave it that good college effort, but they together didn't work and it was ok. A breakup song, I could relate to. And the singer, Rob Milton gave me an ❤ on Twitter when I said his song was my jam.

Oh, and I guess I sinned against the dating gods, somewhere. My old behind got a "Merry Christmas" text this year during Christmas dinner. I had been blessed over the years not to get those. Glad that dude said who he was.

#sirwhydoyoustillhavemynumber

Honorable music mention my favorite member of Dru Hill, Jazz. He had a nice love single that came out this summer called All Your Love. It's so good, I've seen a few line dance videos to it. Check out the song HERE and enjoy the melodic goodness.

I mentioned web shows and I thought about my fandom of some web show networks, blogs, podcasts & celebrities had to decrease. A few of them showed themselves to be quite problematic. By the time Fan, Con failed & the Non-existent community(that I am still a part of) was "blamed", I was tired.

By then I found out some of my faves were involved fraud, lying, deception, backbiting, rape, sexual harassment, & domestic violence in their personal lives. And I not just talking about Hollywood, but indie creatives also. There were all these web series, blogs, & publications that weren't paying their staff & guest columnists. Weirdly, enough none of that was exposed until the explosions happened. I questioned my fandom to the point of tears that flowed like the tea that was steady being spilled. Some confessed, took time away, and came back. Some are still hiding. I pulled my interactions back from a few & some I flat out walked away.

Speaking of tears, if in 2018 and you my dear didn't take any "Me Time", "Mental Health Days", "Self Care Moments" or whatever the trendy people call it, Bless Your Heart!!! And don't mean that in the snarky Southern way. I want God to wrap his arms around you and have you rest for a moment. I had to do some serious work to diffuse from the toxic ways of this world. It was warranted and I'm glad I got what I needed.

And yet through it all, I got to check something off my Bucket List. I got to do some Casual Cosplay at a con. I did a blog post about it. Read it HERE, if you haven't. I am so proud that I did it. I can't explain the feeling I felt when people recognize me as Penny Proud. I felt like I did it something right. Every time I see the photos, I see that young Black, fat, nerdy, awkward girl with little money that didn't see her in mainstream media's coverage of cosplaying. I hope one day a future me-like young one sees my pictures and be inspired to do cosplay too.

2018 wasn't the best, but it could have been so much worse. I limped into it achieving a decent mood. I'll leave it with minimal scarring but still pressing toward the goal of being a better person than I was the previous year. The only goal I know I can constantly work on daily, monthly, & yearly.

As Always Talking to You in Adult Terms!