Past few weeks I have been singing, humming, and praying
this song. My mother was sick. So sick that my sister & I have to take her
to the hospital. So sick she was admitted to the hospital. That was this past Saturday.
Two weeks ago, we thought she had a stomach virus. Boy, were we wrong. But she
on the path of healing her stomach thank to the care of the kind staff, starting
from ER to ICU to her short stint Med-Surg. Today, we brought her home. She
happy to be in her bed. Heck, she was happy to walk to her bed.
Saturday was the scariest day for me. When it was my
grandparents, I was usually the one to stay at the house to man the phones
& take care of my brother (He has cerebral palsy and it severely mentally
challenged). So actually being at the hospital to sign papers and having to be
the one to tell everyone what the DR’s said that 1st day was unreal.
Yeah I took a tear moment after taking to my family & friends (heck they’re
family too). Just saying what was wrong did me in. It was like at that moment,
it all became real. Kevin Hart has a line in one of comedy DVD’s “Nooo, I’m not
ready”. I was not!!! I knew this would happen maybe 10, 15 years in the future.
But me at this age, signing papers But me at this age, discussing with my
sister on what the Doctors are saying. But me at this age, dispatching family member
to do certain tasks. No, No, No not at this age. Yes, at this age. I finally
stop feeling like it was just me doing this for my mom and remember it someone
who has did and is doing these same tasks. I was not the first and won’t me the
last. Grow Up!!! It is not about me.
One of my best friends, T.T. said it best, God is THE
healer!!! Such a True sentence. I know he is going to continue to heal her and
let his will be done. And I am not going to get in his way. It wouldn’t matter,
it’s not lie he needs my permission. Alright my family is getting some rest and
I am part of the family. *sleepy smile*
As Always, Talking to You in Adult Terms